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means An idiom for a heavy, inescapable burden of guilt or responsibility that follows you because it stems from your own past action.

from Straight from Samuel Taylor Coleridge's 1798 poem 'The Rime of the Ancient Mariner,' in which a sailor shoots a friendly albatross — a bird sailors considered good luck — and his shipmates hang its corpse around his neck as punishment and penance. The phrase slipped out of the poem and into everyday speech as shorthand for any self-inflicted, inescapable guilt.